Not so good morning (or is it?)

[liamstliam]

Yes, Liam's gonna whine.

You might want to just click forward to xkcd or Two Lumps.

I am feeling really unstable and depressed today. I just want to crawl back into bed and pull the kitties, I mean the covers, up around my shoulders.

I have done some stupid stuff this week, and I have failed to do a number of other things that need to be done.

What's ironic is that I oughta be feeling terrific.

Agni Dentati will almpst certainly finish first or second among teams at the Polar Plunge tomorow, and I should be first or second as well. And evilnicola has passed the $500 mark and with a little push could make it into the top five. Plus,knoggleknot saw first-hand the power of friendship and went from $0 to maybe $150 in a day or two, and gwenlianna had gotten donations from people she doesn't know.

We've got hotel rooms for tonight and both evilnicola and gwenlianna will be up. Yay!

Oh, and it's gonna be in the mid-50s.

If Ifeel guilty enough, maybe I will do the New Year's Day plunge, too.

Anyway, I am just feeling "off my feed" as the horsey set would say. I am not sure if it's isolated or part of some kind of overall trend.

I am trying to focus on the good things, but I am in another of those "complicated" periods in my LIFE, with dozens of boxes still adorning the house (and we are both working hard), holiday traveling coming up and a couple of great job prospects out there, but seemingly not ready to resolve. I am depressed about friends who have died, some of H1N1, and others who are ill and fighting it.

There's a certain sense of mortality at 50. I really need to make a decision now. Play out the string, do all the same things, or throw life curveball and see what else new and exciting I can accomplish in the next 15-20 years.

Thanks for reading.

Liam

Comments

[dreda.livejournal.com]

It's a liminal season - it's not just you. The earth prepares for sleep, and because of our big brains, we just keep right on charging along, and wondering why it's so hard.

Nothing profound - but I still think you rock and roll.

[liamstliam.livejournal.com]

I can haz hibernation nao plz?

[dreda.livejournal.com]

Precisely. Blanket forts - they're not just an architectural curiosity.

[liamstliam.livejournal.com]

This is scary. We are getting paid and batting witticisms at each other.

What a great life.

[dreda.livejournal.com]

And on the side, I am memorizing Welsh lyrics my beloved wrote. ;) Later, there will be whisky. Yay!